Venting
I just watched a relationship I went into wholeheartedly crash and burn right before my eyes. I gave my all to him loved him unconditionally in a situation that is understandably hard. Yet and still miles away I never stopped loving him despite being alone on holidays like Valentine’s day and New Years eve. Im realizing the last time we were together was our last. Wen I was on the train on my way home from our visit, I cried for the majority of the way home and even afterwards I felt like crying on some days. At the time I thought it was because it was too much to handle. But now I see it was the. Beginning of the end. The first time he broke up with me I knew it was gonna be temporary, this time I know it’s the end. Once again I’m being put in this situation where I have all this love to give to somebody who doesn’t want it. I pray I don’t have to deal with the pain of being alone while he moves on because that would hurt me just as much as this is hurting me now. I put two years I invested into this relationship, I wish I hadn’t put myself into it, distance is a huge burden and falling so deep into love with somebody so far way was a bad idea from the start . He’s such a good man though,I’m afraid that my next relationship wont compare and may e en be worse and that’s just omething I can’t deal with. But with him I really tried to make it work and to make him happy. I just guess he wasn’t the one I’ve been praying for.
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